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My defi has now saved my life several times in the past. On the other hand it has also often given me a shock in situations which from a medical point of view were not absolutely necessary. In particular it is the coping with this shock which brings me to contradict the standard phrase"Don't be afraid you are protected by the defibrillator!". But I am afraid because my quality of life is substantially impaired not only by the high number of shocks suffered. Each new defi shock triggers in me a series of recurring reaction patterns. There is a tendency to observe by me that with every new shock the restoration of a rudimentary emotional equilibrium always takes longer. However, I want to be able to appear in public again without being accompanied every step of the way by the notion of collapsing in public or to twitch like an electric eel. I can't get used to the idea of an existence as a ticking time bomb.